Gratitude can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. It makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow. –Melody Beattie

I have been getting down on myself a bit lately. I’ve been feeling a lack of confidence in much of what I do. I wanted to try soaring and yesterday I went to the glider port, but I chickened out. I know Bernoulli’s Principle governs all flight and gliders just don’t drop out of the air, but despite all that knowledge I was too scared to try. Today I’m driving over to the Finger Lakes Soaring Club and try to get up the nerve to go.

Not going soaring is the latest manifestation of this lack of confidence. I feel this at work and at play. I’ve been in this unsure funk for sometime. One of my spiritual advisors has tried to help me to overcome these feelings but despite all that I do that nagging doubt is still there. Maybe it’s part of being fifty something. Maybe you could pray that I get some direction. Peace.

5 Replies to “Gratitude”

  1. Don,

    Did you end up going soaring? It’ll happen, give it time if you didn’t make it up today.

  2. Didn’t do it today. I went and even prayed for courage, but not enough came. I do enjoy watching them launch and retrieve the sailplanes. They are graceful. I had a good visit with one of the old timers there today and he said one step at a time, a bit like a ladder. Maybe I’ll get there someday. I’m very cautious by nature. It’s one of my character flaws. Don

  3. You gotta keep your head up nothing ever is that bad, and sometimes you just gotta push through, when i lost Mark i questioned alot of things about myself and life in general. And lacked confience in all of my endevors. I kept my head up and kept pushing through, eventually that confidence came back and i became a more complete person as a result of my experince.

  4. Thanks for the encouragement. Blogging is therapeutic for me. I frequently can’t see the forest for the trees. I need others to remind me that I’m setting my goals just a bit too high.l

  5. Don, I have always fought feeling inadequate–struggled to rise above it and have more self confidence. But a recent loss has made me helpless as a baby, even though I have gone back to work and continue to feed the dogs and birds, etc…

    During this time, it has made me wonder if it is such a bad thing to feel completely helpless. I can’t take a step without God. If that is the case, He will have to lead me and take over my life. I’m not sure I will ever want to struggle to get more confidence again.

    Maybe what you’re going through is some sort of letting go, surrendering.

    May you be blessed with God’s grace and peace.

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